I believe that Cheezit said it best. Layhoma, please be assured that you have my prayers for Bonny in her remaining time with this company. I agree with Cheezit and Rlyd that this posting was not, God's Will for her and that so often, even when we feel we are followng His guidance, we can, in reality, be following our own leading instead. It's certainly a gray area and from my 22 year experience as a believer, I know too, that God, for reasons only He knows sometimes closes doors we think He had orginally opened for us. My heart goes out to Bonny regarding her suicidal thoughts and I can relate. I firmly believe that very few, (including believers) get through the process of grief after losing a loved one, as I did last year, without walking the deep pit of depression and near despair, bringing with it the belief that there is very little purpose left to one's life. Christians are NOT immune from these experiences and should not be judged by them. But....I also know and have personally experienced His Presence by my side through every facet of this grief process and I know that my Redeemer can, has, and will continue to lift me beyond the despair so that I in turn can' comfort others with the comfort He has given me (paraphrased) as Paul wrote in Corinthians. I pray that Bonny will be encouraged to continue to put her faith firmly in Christ and in His Word and that she will understand that for the believer there is ALWAYS....I'll repeat...ALWAYS...a way beyond the deepest pits of our lives. Be blessed. Cym